Alright, so maybe I’m being just a little dramatic. Tomorrow I turn 25 years old and I’m facing it with a mixture of trepidation and apathy. I actually forgot it was my birthday until a few days ago when my love asked me where I wanted to go for dinner. I perked up thinking, what’s the occasion? Oh, that’s right, I’m turning a miserable 25 years old. La di da.

Half of me feels like I’m suddenly too old and too different for certain things that I’ve experienced. I get bored at nightclubs but I can’t stand pseudo-posh bars with enormous metal menus and pricey (yet unsatisfying) entrees. Working on a college campus makes me feel old, out of place and tired. I am often broke. I have a degree but feel as though I’ve accomplished nothing - as if my B.A. in English just isn’t enough for the world. Occasionally, I feel a certain kind of anxiety when it comes to relationships. I’m convinced I’m un-marriagable and will remain the eternal girlfriend (which I totally predicted 10 years ago).

Yesterday I tried making bread, again, in my bread machine. It was a disaster and it turned out kind of like me. The ingredients were added in the wrong order so it was flavorless and the wrong consistency.

The other half of me is truly delighted with how my life is going: I have a fabulous boyfriend, a lovable dog, a solid job and my overall health is improving with every run. I’m only 25, for God’s sake, and at least I have a degree tucked under my belt. My life is filled with love and lovely things - so this whole quarter life blues, well, it’s got to go.

I can rely on the holidays for a happy distraction and yes - I am a complete sucker for Thanksgiving (my favorite), Christmas and New Year’s. There’s something special about these days that just inspire a sense of renewal, energy and togetherness. I can’t help it, I’m a total sap for the proverbial holiday cheer. I love to host dinner parties and this year, I’m hosting Thanksgiving dinner at the home that I share with my boyfriend. Naturally, I’m all atwitter over decorations, table settings and menu planning.

After a few trips to the local dollar stores - and a huge shout out to Dollar Tree which has to be my all time favorite dollar store - I’m totally ready to Merry the shit out of Christmas.

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