I spent a lot of time on this blog trying to embrace a niche, or rather, finding a niche that would embrace me. I didn’t succeed. I felt like if I could find some focus, I would develop more of a direction in my life. I thought by now that I’d be blogging about graduate school, an engagement or maybe a move overseas - but none of those things happened and there’s a good reason, I didn’t want any of those things. At least, not right now.

But, I feel like I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that I’m OK with not knowing what I want to do with my life. I felt that icy fear of uncertainty: what is life like after college? Will he marry me? How much money will I make? Should I go back to school? And then I got really lazy, relying on the decisions of my then-boyfriend and constantly worried about how it would affect my life. I worried a lot about what would happen to me, but I never really did anything about it. I blogged half-heartedly, intermittently wanting to do more but unmotivated to start. So, after years of freaking out and being deeply dissatisfied, I’m now happy with where I am. It’s an intermission in my life where I am free to do as little or as much as I want, and I don’t want to waste a moment of it.

So, allow me to re-introduce myself:

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I’m having issues posting and editing with Wordpress. Despite my efforts, Wordpress tends to eats my blog posts. I think it’s trying to tell me something.

I’m having the problem fixed so that it won’t discourage me to update on a regular basis. But who am I kidding, I’m a lazy blogger anyway.
Once I’m running normally I’d like to host a giveaway - for the 2 people that occasionally check in. I have a lot of cute stationary. I want to give it to you.

I’ve been cooking and shopping and photographing and eating and stressing. But I haven’t been blogging. After only a week of driving around my 2001 Volkswagen Beetle, the AC suddenly died. It sat in the shop for 5 days before it was returned to me. This morning the engine light came on and now I finally understand: the universe, clearly, doesn’t want me driving anymore.

After years of avoiding the Ipod and other Apple related products, I finally broke down and bought an 4gb Ipod Nano. I usually listen to music on my laptop when I’m at home, but when I’m in my car, I have to have my mp3s with me and I cannot tolerate the radio. So, on a very impulsive shopping spree, I bought a very expensive car radio to go with my very expensive Ipod Nano that goes in a very expensive Betsey Johnson Ipod case. I know, I have a spending problem. I’m working on it.

But, since I’ve been cooking nearly every single day (and enjoying the shit out of it), I have fallen in love with video podcasts about cooking which I usually watch during my lunch hour at work. So I’m going to say something I’d never thought I’d say in all my years of living: Dear Ipod Nano, I love you. But, like, this is only going to be a one time thing. There will not be an iphone, itouch or iwhatever in my future. This is it.